..HeRe I aM..

so let's start from the beginning..... or almost! :)
1 - BOYFRIEND: dumped the one i loved (but that cheated on me) for another one (loved him too, but not as i used to love the other one....and i cheated on this one really a lot) and then for another one (and i fucking love him, shit) who doesn't love me at all.... yeah from bad to worst.... x_x
2 - WORK: i've been fired, because i've been really bitchy....mhuahahah!!!! now i have another job, 5 minutes walking from my place... i don't really like it, but the guys are quite fine and i need money to move out...
3 - FAMILY: living alone really help me out in this.... but i'm looking forward to move to Australia as soon as possible..... yeah Down There i'm coming!!!!!!!
4 - PETS: i have a really lovely lovely dog, called Leila.... she's so sweet and she actually saved my life from depression last year!!!!
5 - ED: well the only thing that actually didn't change...... i'm still struggling with Anorexia and Bulimia (yeah i won that one too..... every 5 years of Ana you get Mia free =.='' ) but i'm always fat as hell........


i think this's everything.....well the important things.......


so today i was 115,5 lbs (and i wanted to die), i ate 350 cals till dinner time, than i ate 700 cals....... 
HELL YEAH I PUKED EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!
than hot shower, lax (lots of guttalax) and chamomille tea.....

Gosh

Oh, my....it's like FOREVER i'm not writing here..... wow....
ok let's say only one thing (and i'll promise tomorrow i'll be updating everything):
I HAVE NEVER LEFT MY QUEST ON THE SUPER SKINNY TARGET!!!!
only that anorexia and bulimia have took over me too much this past months....
now i'm back at my origins THANKS GOD!!!!!!
current weight - 112 lbs GOING DOWN!!!!!!!